Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Words

What is this magic? I uploaded videos recently! Magic!
http://www.youtube.com/user/zoemew?feature=guide 
http://www.youtube.com/user/nothingcollab
http://www.youtube.com/user/SineadBot 
You will find me in new videos on all three of those.

Other talk now!
It’s always weird how people don’t trust me as a friend just because I’m someone they met online. Why does everyone expect me to be a 40 year old creeper?
Even if they’ve watched my videos.
The same applies for the friends I make IRL. They don’t trust my online friends.
Basically, trust doesn’t exist.
I don’t trust the people either. I don’t have plans of meeting them all or something. I need to know what they look like, in a video or something. I also know more about internet people and I know not to believe EVERYTHING I read from someone. I just know that they can’t harm me while I’m behind a computer screen, a common mistake among human-folk.

Other talk is over now!

DFTBA
Stay Groovy
Best Wishes
All the rest
Byeeeeee
S

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Grade 9: Week 1

So, I began the 9th Grade on Wednesday.
It’s been a strange week for me.
It began with an early awakening after very little sleep. I enjoyed seeing my friends again. I received many positive comments about my red hair. That was nice.
Then began registration in which I was given my timetable and forced to give a little biography of myself. It went a little something like this:
“My name is Sinead. I think I am too complex a being to describe in one little biography. Basically, I’m a nerd. I’m proud of being a nerd.” This got applause, to my surprise. “I am a member of the online community known as Nerdfighters. We are nerds. We don’t fight nerds, obviously. Thanks.” and I sat down very awkwardly.
I was then forced to give the very social girl beside me a high five. Ugh, human contact.
Then began assembly. I was very disappointed to learn that I was not in the same class as any of my friends. At least I have Lindsey, though. I think I’ll know her quite well by the end of the year as I spend more time with her than any of my other friends.
I am certain that this year is going to be depressing without random moments in class with Nimisha, Claudia and Giulia.
Day 2 was a little better but I was told that my hair colour is not natural looking and I have until Monday to make it more natural. This was quite disappointing.
My new class is not very Sinead friendly and this could be a little problematic.
Bleh.
I have also received homework every day. This year has been quite stressful and it’s only the first week.
At the end of Day 2, we were given an assembly about the new “merit/demerit” system and I think it is utter rubbish. We have “green card offences”, “yellow card offences” and “red card offences”, all varying in intensity. Basically, having my red hair is a “yellow card offence” and wearing my DFTBA wristband is a “green card”. Green is not good, as you would think. No, instead it’s just more mild than others.
I have also noted the absence of a reward system, so basically my school thinks we are only allowed to be punished. Lovely. Just lovely.
Day 3 began with a piece of paper with information about ourselves on it being handed to each student. Apparently my religious views are “aenostic”, which isn’t even correct as I’m an atheist. Also, how do they know my dexterity? I haven’t told them about my right-handedness. How do they know?
What also worried me about that page was that on each and every form, there was a section labeled “maternity leave”, as though they expect our school to be filled with pregnant sluts. WTF?
This has been a post filled with a certain level of anger and I apologise. Maybe next time I’ll talk about something nice, like Doctor Who.
DFTBA
S

Friday, January 20, 2012

Internet… I miss you

I think our internet spends more time down than actually available to be used.
Stupid weather.

Anyway, I’m writing this at 2:38 AM on Friday 13 January. I have yet to sleep but I did get some sleep earlier. I’ll probably upload this along with the one I wrote last night during the sleep over I had with my friends later, when I have internet.
My sleeping patterns need to be fixed soon. I go back to school on Wednesday.

I tried vlogging yesterday (Wednesday [days are so confusing]) but as I was uploading there was some stupid error and I couldn’t upload it. I’ll try to make one tomorrow (Friday [again… confusing]) and hopefully I’ll have internet to upload it.
I think people should just read my blog if they want to keep up with me.

Additionally, the procrastination from beginning nothingcollab has to end now. I must make a video on either Monday or Tuesday to be uploaded on Tuesday. If I want to have a collab, I have to start it.
Bleh.

That’s the end… I guess.
I’m not that tired so I’ll probably just lie here thinking.
Ugh. Why can’t I just turn my brain off like normal people.
Anyway, DFTBA and best wishes
S

Another late post. Sorry!

An Interesting Time

My friends are visiting. We have watched Doctor Who and played Guitar Hero and as I write this, Soul Caliber 4 tournaments occur. It’s 2:12 AM on Thursday 12 January and I have been awake for too long.
Decay in brain activity has begun.

Charlotte has instructed me to inform all my readers of her vastly impressive fighting skills and Giulia’s awesome new haircut (???).
Charlotte has also seemingly fallen in love with the YouTuber savanamazing as a result of her impressive beauty and her “general awesomeness” though she states that she is NOT a lesbian.

Claudia is excited over her new phone, however, she is currently frustrated in the heat of gameplay with Giulia defeating her cruelly as a cold blooded bully.  
Now all our sleep over without sleep is missing is the fantastical Nimisha.
We all miss her and I’m sure she’d like to see us before the return of the common education system known as school.

This particular blog post has been invaded by the almighty Charlotte and she requests that I add various things to the end of this post.

|I_____I|     <---- Robot ^_^   
|   o  o  |   
|__ H__|  

(|__|)   
(o.o)    <---- Bunny rabbit ^_^
(n n) 

<========[//////)    <--- Sword

(I would have drawn a Charlotte but my brain is fried) 

▲  TRIANGLES ARE AWESOME 

Teaching Charlotte some awesome stuff on the computer FTW.

DFTBA and Best Wishes

-hugs sad Claudia- 

Sorry I’m only uploading this today, 20 January. Wow, I’m slow.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Contemplatory Stuff

Contemplatory is not a word? It should be.

I had so much in my mind that I wanted to write down but then it all fizzled into the sadness of contemplatory not being a word. Damn people and their words.
I think I’ve been watching Wheezy Waiter too much because this is kinda how his mind seems to work.

I completed the drawings I did last night. Yaaay! I will scan them in when I can get hold of the scanner and then I’ll upload them with some other stuff.
Wow, I really should find the scanner. There’s a lot that I need to scan.

So, I realized a mere few moments ago that several social filters exist in my head.
For example, the “weird filter” saves me from speaking the very first thing that appears in my head as people may find it odd. This filter is used whenever I am around people. Blogging and vlogging are dangerous because the filter doesn’t automatically turn itself on as it does around others. Sometimes if becomes faulty in quick situations or sleep deprived days, such as today. (I didn’t sleep last night… again)
The existence of the “weird filter” came to my attention when I was in the kitchen, getting breakfast wen I said something odd (that something is currently not available due to terrible memory) and then I was thankful that I was not surrounded by people as I would have received some strange looks.
Sometimes it’s just so random.
Like so:

I wanna be a chair.
Ooh my cereal looks like a robot head!
I wonder what it’s like to be an ant.
I wonder what the Earth tastes like.
Can I adopt Nyan Cat?
Meow?

This is mild weirdness.

Best Wishes
DFTBA
S

Explosion Wednesday

How appropriate it is to draw this:
men-s-explosion-wednesday_design
on Explosion Wednesday.
I’ve been drawing a lot tonight. Yes, it’s still the same night.
Scans of both pictures coming soon.
I hate it when the internet is down.
This was written at 2:10 AM on Wednesday 11 January 2012.

DFTBA and Best Wishes (my outro is getting gradually longer)
S

Zombicorns

I was reading the short story “Zombicorns” by John Green when I felt inspired to draw a zombie.
The drawing is coming out well. Something for my Wall Of Stuff. ^_^

Hahaha, live laughing moment as I write. I’m listening to Chameleon Circuit and “Still Not Ginger” is playing. They said zombie. I laughed. You probably had to be there to find it as funny as me.

So, I’m having friends over tomorrow. We’re having a Doctor Who evening. Fun!

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green came out today (10 Jan) and I was a little sad. Thankfully, I can now get it on my tablet through the Kindle app thanks to my awesomely amazing mother. Thanks mum ^_^
I know that as soon as I get it, I won’t put my tablet down for a long time. I can’t wait to get it. Much happy dancing occurred today.

We’ll be in Germany in a few months so I’m trying to arrange a Nerdfighter Gathering. I t would be so awesome to meet other Nerdfighters.

It’s Tuesday today. Damn. I was supposed to make a vlog for nothingcollab. I’m a bit worried that it’ll never happen now.
-frustrated sigh-

Well, back to drawing for me.
DFTBA and Best Wishes
S

By the way: This was written on 10 January 2012 but it will only be published later due to a lack of internet at the present moment as a result of weather.

Friday, January 6, 2012

My Two Lives

I live a life split into two.
People in the life of mine that I refer to as “real life” filled with physical, observable objects, people and various features refer to me as Sinead. that is the name that I carry around with me, my face being placed with it.
My second life, while not featuring people that I can physically interact with, I can still form relationships with them. I have befriended many people on the internet. I could actually speculate on the fact that I have found a much wider range of people to befriend on the internet and I have made many more friendships online than IRL.
I have a select group of people to whom I refer as my friends. Even these relationships take much time to formulate to a degree at which I can refer to them as friends.
I find it difficult to trust the people I am placed with in life as a result of the personalities I interacted with in earlier years.
I guess the same applies to all aspects of my life. I have a fear of betrayal, I guess.
I don’t see myself ever wholly explaining and expressing myself to any one entity.
Maybe this makes me a loner, a freak, whatever stereotypical label that society decides to give me. I just keep to myself.
While my life is split into two, many features of my personality overflow between the two, as said by my trust issues.
That said, I also express many parts of myself on the internet that I don’t really show to the physical world.

I have friends at school. I think that I have a rather awesome friend group.
Comparing to the people that featured in my life previously, they are perfect.
Sure, people have flaws. As do I. Perhaps they are similar to me in that they also have difficulty expressing themselves to the world.
On the topic of flaws, I was just distracted by the charlieissocoollike video I’m watching and I have lost my concentration. That slice of my train of thought is lost.
Sorry ‘bout that.

Anyway, Internet people.
As a member of the internet, my brain is full of memes, inside jokes and general understanding of what goes on. My friends, however, are not really in on the joke.
This makes it difficult for me, someone who finds the most obscure references from anything, to be completely comfortable in conversation.
I will often reference memes and people will look at me oddly, leaving me trying to make a dire effort to explain the meme, adding more effort than there would be to just say “never mind” and carry on.
I am, however, someone who enjoys sharing my life with them and this has resulted in them also seeing the videos of certain people of the YouTube land, such as Charlie McDonnell and all the rest that I’m too lazy to list now because I’ll be here all night.
Nimisha, classified as my current best friend, is probably the most understanding of the YouTube community. She is a Nerdfighter and she has a YouTube account. She still has a long way to go before being as Internet knowing as I am.
I doubt that any of my friends would ever truly understand all the inside jokes that there are. So sad.
That is where my Nerdfighter friends come into play.
Mareike, a German Nerdfighter, is a friend of mine that I met over the ning. We have now formed a pretty good friendship over Skype, Facebook, YouTube and Tumblr.
She is in the same position as I am in terms of Internet understanding.
We can relate on a certain level and I enjoy talking to her because I am given a certain freedom in conversation, not having to explain all the inside jokes. She naturally notices them in the way that I do.
We also enjoy many of the same YouTubers and we can fangirl together.
I fangirl for Charlie and she fangirls for David Tennent. It’s a perfect friendship. ^_^

I have now rambled way too much.
I’ll shut up now.
Byeeeeee
DFTBA yo
S

What a long outro I have.
I really don’t blame you if you didn’t read that. I’m probably not even going to read it all.

This was written 2 days ago from publishing date.. so yeah.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

The Path To Insanity

I have fallen prey to the terrible deceit that is madness. My brain has betrayed all my trust. I believed that it would not create such terrible scenarios while I sleep. Instead, I was given nightmares.
I dream of monsters we call zombies. These particular ones are sentient. They taunt me. They follow me around this endless looping world that my dreams have formed. They hide in every corner, waiting to invade my mind. This land of insanity is formed by pre-apocalyptic landscape. Houses, cars, fences, grass and many more man made constructions litter this world, making it terribly hard to escape the lurking fiends.
They hunt you down. They corner you. They tease you. They mess with your mind for a while. Then they eat you.
I dreamt of this, travelling in an endless journey. I saw familiar faces, pulled from memory. Each person had one zombie that would follow them around. The zombie seemed to change per lap. Some were particularly terrifying and some were too strong for me. I don't quite understand the point of these zombies. They didn't seem to be interested in actually killing people. They were all talk and no action.
I was getting pretty scared of the one that was following me. She shouted a lot and she kept grabbing my arms, trying to prevent my movement.
As she was shouting at me one last time, I paused the game and woke up.
That was an interesting twist to my dream.

Now I sit here at 2:22 AM and I dont want to sleep for fear of the game continuing.
Please, save me from monsters of my slowly unraveling mind.

I guess I should just face the dream world, whatever it may hold.
I've been having lots of nightmare-ish dreams recently.
I need to stop reading the scary book I'm reading then.

Okay, now that I have leaked enough of my madness into your brain, I can leave this now.
Good night
DFTBA
S

PS: First time blogging from my phone.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2011: A Review

I write this a mere 20 minutes after 2011 ended.
Welcome to the new year.
Before I can begin with all that I have planned for this year, I feel I should look back at the year passed.
I changed a lot this year.
I entered High School. I made new friends and I learned a lot.
I guess I changed a lot socially.
I found new interests.
I think the highlight of this year was finding the YouTube community.
Having my perception of YouTube changed so much was a very big thing. I used to think YouTube was filled with music videos, parodies, cats, fat people falling over and supposed “ghosts” caught on camera. Now I have this amazing community of people, so many friends, more interests and a general better self.
I would not have found so many things without this life.
Nerdfighteria has changed my life.
All I could every say to Hank and John is thanks. This thanks radiates through my entire body and soul. I don’t know where I would be without it.
So many friends. So much new culture. So many inside jokes.
I love it.
Now, the beginning of my time in the land of awesome has ended, I can move on to the next chapter of life.
I have many blog posts to write and I have video blogs to make in the new year.
My collab should be up and running soon, so I shall be rather busy.
Juggling school, video blogging, learning German, a social life, internetting, learning guitar and more will be a task on it’s own, but I think I can do it.

I hope you have all had happy holidays and stuff.
Enjoy 2012. Let it be an awesome one. Also, don’t let us die.
Please.
Best wishes
DFTBA
S